That’s SUPER! April 10, 2009

It is finally Friday. It has been one long week for me, but that is okay. After tomorrow, I will have worked 47 hours this week.  I mean I am really glad, because I need the money. But, besides that I am just exhausted.  Tomorrow I get to go home and I am super excited about that because I  miss my family a lot and I get to see all of them on Sunday.  I love my family, no matter how dsyfunctional they are. =]

I am almost a senior, but that really doesn’t mean anything because I am going to eventually be a super senior. But, that is okay.  When I graduate I will hopefully be able to get a job anywhere I want.  Which would be anywhere south.  I am so sick of Indiana and the cold.  Yes, I love snow and yes I love winter nights because they are so clear and crisp.  But, I am sick of the pretty much five months of Winter we have.  I mean some days are warm and then its cold.  I just want out. No need to worry about getting out right now though.  I am committed to Indiana for the next two or three years. Which I guess I am okay with.  I am still young and have plenty of life to live.

I am pretty happy although every now and again I really miss having a boyfriend.  But, I like where I am about 90% of the time and that is good enough. When its time to open my eyes to guys again, I will know. Plus, I don’t want to have a boyfriend just for the sake of having one. That is completely ridiculous. Plus, boys are usually pretty ridiculous. Hehe. A

Life is good, even if the sun isn’t shining. It will eventually and that is all that matters.

=]

Everything in the end, comes down to timing. One second, one minute, one hour, could make all the difference.

Crazy Life April 6, 2009

So, I pretty much suck at this blogging thing.

Not too much has been happening — just busy.  I have another jobs.  I am working at Sears. Yay for retail! This week I am working 27  hours and then at the college of ed for like 20 hours.  Add school and there goes my life.  I need money and plus it wont be bad.  I sleep like 5 hours a night, so its okay.

Life is good.  I cannot complain about anything.  Maybe the fact that it is snowing in APRIL. I just think that it is plain ridiculous.

Life is not so good in the sense that I have a cousin with a swollen brain, whose mother wrecked her car because she was high.  If he recovers he will be coming out with a respirator for the rest of his life.  He is four. Also, one of my best friends from elementary school passed away this week.  I hadn’t talked to him in years, but still. He was the first person that was my age that died.  It is just crazy. Life ends so quickly for some, and some of us are blessed for more years on this wonderful planet.  It just makes me so thankful for every moment of this life.  ((Even if it is snowing in April))

Sunny Days, Cloudless Skies March 19, 2009

Well — it has been awhile since I last posted.  I can honestly say I have been crazy busy this week.  Between tests, papers, church, friends, and the everyday stuff I have been coming home exhausted and then not going to bed until like 1 or 2 [which is extremely late for me].

I have ran everyday this week so far and I am going to run tomorrow.  I am so proud of myself for sticking to it four days in a row and we will see what tomorrow brings.  I already feel my body adjusting and getting used to going longer and faster.  I hope that eventually I can run what I used to be able to run.  It would be really nice! =]

I also am sort of job hunting this week.  I went to Cheeseburger, where I sat for 2 hours and tested just for them to tell me that since I was going to be gone for seven weeks that I couldn’t have the job but to come  back in August.  But, I have an interview at Sear’s next week and I’m really hoping that it goes well! =] I just want a job so badly. I need one more like it. I have a fifth year to pay for now.

Life is good. The sun is shining.  The weather isn’t freezing.  There is not much to complain about.  I mean there usually isn’t.  I just hope this weather is here to stay because I cannot take any of that cold stuff anymore. That is why when I graduate I am moving somewhere warm. Like Florida or Georgia or something.  Goodbye Indiana. Hello warmth. =]

Well I am going to go take a walk with one of the roomies.

=]

Turn your face to the sun and the shadows will fall behind you.

March 16, 2009

So, Spring Break is over and done with.  Very sadly I may add.  But, I had an amazing time down in Daytona with some people I have been friends with since Kindygarten. I also made a couple good friends that will probably be in my life from now on.

On Friday (before Spring Break) I was packing my bag for home while my roommate was packing her bag for Daytona.  That made me slightly envious because I was born to be in the warmth and the water.  Then, she was like well there is still room if you want to go.  So — I considered it.  I was worried about money.  But I’ve always wanted to do that.  I said I’d tell them tomorrow.  So Saturday morning I woke and decided to go to Spring Break.  16 hours later — I was in Daytona.

It was so amazing down there…the sand and the sun.  It was 80 degrees everyday and there wasn’t a cloud in the sky.  I was just sippin on my drink and enjoying life.  It was really a perfect week.  The last night was the best — just chillin on the beach watching the stars and the moon. It was fabulous.  And I desperately needed to get away and clear my head so I could have clear thoughts.

Thanks to my head clearing, I decided it is time for me to be single and to be single for a long time.  I love not having a boyfriend or anything that resembles that.  I have not been single (for more than 3 months) since I was like 12 and now is a good time for me to start that.  I miss out on so much when I have a boyfriend because I put him first, but now I know better.

Well this is long and I am sleepy. [thats what a 16 hour drive does to ya!!]

=]

Live each season as it passes; breathe the air, drink the drink, taste the fruit and resign yourself to the influences of each.

March 4, 2009

It’s Wednesday.  Typically, one of my favorite days of the week.  Not so much this week.  I am really ready for Spring Break.  We are not going anywhere now, but that is okay.  I just want a week without class.  Forcing myself out of bed has been a task everyday this week.  I mean it is somewhat a task everyday but even more so this week.  It is about this time when I just stop caring about school.  But, I need to care about school, because I need good grades.  It just is getting old — and think I signed up for an extra year of this stuff. What was I thinking?

On another note, I got a co-signer for my apartment.  My Grandma decided to do it.  She said she wouldn’t do it for anyone else though, which makes me feel special.  But, if you met my my family you would understand.  They all pretty much suck on the paying bills part of life.  Actually they suck at a lot of things.  But, they are my family and I love them. =]

Nothing too exciting going on in my world.  I am just doing what I do and having fun at it.  Unfortunately class involves itself in the middle of this predicament and steals all my fun.  Stupid class!!

Well, I have to be goin! =]

To sit in the shade on a fine day, and look upon verdure is the most perfect refeshment.

just sleepy ramblings… March 2, 2009

It has been a very good weekend and it seemed to last pretty long.  But, that could deal with the fact that I got 2 hours of sleep last night.  Oh, well. I can sleep when I am dead. I am very tired now and it is only 9 o’clock.  I’ll probably be heading to bed like in an hour or so.  Then starts another awful week of school, but not really that awful.

I hate awkard.  Awkward situations, awkwardness, awkward turtles.  I hate the whole lot of them.  But, I don’t point out awkwardness because sometimes I think it is only awkward for me. I just hate it so much.  I think awkward is a part of life [well mine at least] so, I guess I will just have to deal with it.

Well, this is short and sweet but I don’t think I can keep my eyes open for two more minutes. It’s going to be a busy week anyways, so it might be good for me to get some sleep.

=]

If you want to view paradise, simply look around and view it. Anything you want to, do it. Want to change the world? There’s nothing to it.

Accio Weekend! February 27, 2009

Finally Friday.  It has been a long week, but a good one.  I have been pretty busy homework wise, and I have so much to do next week. Argh. I hate homework, but I guess that is what college is all about. But — it is 7 days until Spring Break! YES! YES! I need a week off so bad.  I still am not totally for sure what I am doing, but I think Tennessee is where we will be headed. =] It better be warmer there.

I am so ready for this weekend to be here. We are having a Harry Potter marathon, because we are dorks like that.  I love Harry Potter and probably get too excited about it.  I am like a twelve year old and I am okay with that. =] Saturday a [very] good friend will be here and I believe we are all going out.  I still like going to the bars a lot because I have barely been 21 for a month.  I don’t think anyone shares my excitement.  That is okay, I’ll be excited by myself.  =]=]=]=] [<--see EXCITEMENT!]

Kyle has moved from being sad to being very angry at me.  But, I’d rather him be mad at me than sad, because I don’t like to make people sad.  I understand how hard it is for him.  It is hard for me.  Life goes on and we do not know what the future will bring.  That is the excitement of life, not knowing for sure what is going to happen in the next year [or even ten minutes] of your life.  It is better now, I don’t feel as bad.  I am pretty sure that is selfish thought, but it was having a negative affect on me.

Later taters.

=]

‘The consequences of our actions are so complicated, so diverse, that predicting the future is a very difficult business indeed.’ [that is of course from Harry Potter]

Stop CLAPPING!! February 25, 2009

So, we are watching the presidential debate. And we have noticed that they clap way too freaggin much! Yes, he is saying good things.  Yes, he has good ideals.  But, has it happened yet? Has he followed through? No.  But, it is good to be hopeful for him to do well as leading this crazy and different nation of ours.

Tonight was “girl’s night” and it was a blast.  We saw puppies, went to Sears (where I was avoided), and had some real Hacienda.  But, gir’ls night is ending and by Mike’s is wearing off. Sort of.  But, it needs too because I want to sleep in my bed tonight.

I realized tonight that I love a few of my friends a whole bunch.  They make me laugh no matter what and they are people I can tell ever secret to and not be judged.  They love me just as much as I love them and I cannot wait for ONE to be my roommate next year.  Her and I weren’t really great friends until this year, but I am glad that we are now.

I also am opening my mind to something that has always been there, since day one, but timing is not right and it would not be fair.  But, whatever the results of that are way off.  Yes, I am mysterious. Sorry.

Oh and I woke up this morning and my cell phone was broke.  But, I took care of it, so that is okay.  It seems like a minor note today.

Well, I think that I am done.

=]

Friends are the best!

Hello. Again. February 24, 2009

Well, here I am back to the world of blogging. We’ll see how well it goes this time around.  =]

Life is changing for me.

Kyle and I broke up and that was really hard on the both of us.  However, there are just times when a girl needs to be single.  Actually not just a girl, but a guy too.  He still doesn’t understand and that is okay.

On the thought of change, I am also taking another year of school.  Now why would any person in their right mind want to do that? Well, first of all I am not ready to become an adult.  (Seriously, who likes to pay bills and find a job in this economy — NOT THIS GIRL) Secondly, I really want my minors in English as a New Language, and my first love – - History. (I know I am a nerd) What’s the negative to this? Well, I have to pay for it.  Which is easier said than done, but I will get by. It is called saving money and it is a new concept to me. Also, a real job may be in order.  Darn it!

ALSO — I have two. Count em’, TWO roommates next year and they are some of my favorite people in the entire world.  So, that will be nice.  Plus, rent will be relatively cheap. And when it comes down to it — that is what matters most for me.  I am going to miss my roommates now though, because it is nice having four people around to talk to, but that is okay. Life goes on. Change happens.

Now, I am just counting the days to spring break, camp, summer, and all that good garb but still enjoying each and everyday during the journey.  That is what I care about most, is not wasting a day of my life wishing for tomorrow.

But, Shakespeare is calling my name (in a hateful tone) and so is the shower (which is more welcoming).  So, we’ll see if I stick with this or not within the next couple weeks.

=]

…Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering…